Friday, February 13, 2009

The pursuit of Happiness

Happiness, Fun, Joy, Enjoyment.
सुख, खुशी, आनंद।

we take them in a same fashion. But there is a qualitative difference between them. सुख is usually used for the short term feeling obtained from fulfillment of a goal or from exercising the senses. It is the one which is most anticipated and the cause of all the rat-race in this world.
On the other hand, आनंद is a whole another feeling. It just comes naturally. You dont need to do anything for it but just to pause a little bit and realise that you have it. But we are so engrossed in chasing the सुख that we dont give a chance for आनंद to manifest. However there are those occasional moments when our greeds leaves us or are asleep and we get overwhelmed by आनंद। Remember the time when you suddenly noticed the beauty of the day, the rising sun, the morning dew drops, the overcast sky or just about anything which you would have ignored in your rush. The rush to go through life quickly. Isnt that strange, we want to live quickly and yet we want to live longer. what is the hurry?

Following is what I called Happiness - Desire curve. Happiness is the आनंद , the fun of action itself. Desire is the desire of the fruit of action.

As our desire for the fruit of our action grows stronger, we no longer pay attention to the joy of action itself. In this manner we loose not only quantitatively but also qualitatively. The duration of action is much longer than the time taken to enjoy the fruits of action. If we loose all the fun in action itself, it becomes misery. we spend long hours of misery to enjoy seconds of success.
Plus the joy of action is qualitatively better than the joy of success.

Ideal would be an enlightened being who acts for the sake of action and not for the fruit of action and who has no desire left. But for us lesser mortals, we dont understand the logic of doing anything unless there is a big fruit standing at the end of it. But try doing it for once.
Its like playing with your child. you dont play with him/her to win or lose. The action itself is the fruit of it.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Recognizing the Observer within

All Religious texts point to 3 basic divisions of consciousness:
- The mana or the mind
- The mati or the intellect
- The aatma or the soul/conscience

Each of these has various levels and inclinations. The mana or the mind; the most notorious of them all, can be satvik (inclined to positive), rajsik (inclined to materialism) or tamsik (inclined to negative).
Mati or the intellect has various levels defined in religious texts. There are many practices which when followed will lead the mati to higher levels. There is a separate name for each level of intellect or mati. It is very interesting; I will put it up here sometime.

Mind is unstoppable; it is so disillusionary that only a handful are able to control it to some part. and yes; the chosen few leap across it.
Higher the level of mati or the intellect; better will be the control over the mana. But yet, it is mere control. It is like a gas contained in a steel vessel. The gas and the pressure is still present. Mind is still not fully tamed and can not be fully tamed by intellect. It is beyond intellect. Hence when we try to control the mind from one side; it will express itself from another side or dimension.

It is a game which keeps going between mana and the mati. When we choose the path of intellect and try to recognize the observer; it is important to be careful that we do not fall into illusion of the mind or the intellect either. Intellect may not be of highest level and can sure cause illusion or in other words; allow the mind to create the illusion.

I am getting this feeling that it is what is happening with me. It has been long since I have sit in meditation and looked within. There were times when I could see the observer clearly; but I feel that there has been a lot of dust since; and it needs to cleaned up by sessions of meditation before we could continue the path of intellect.

I think; the other paths like the path of bhakti or devotion or the path of prem or love; can be very useful to sheild the sadhak against various attacks made by mana. It is not easy to catch mana. The intellect should be of highest level which is possible by performing various rituals; and it is good to incline mana to satvik inclination. it will help to maintain the intellect and would pose less hinderances.

Rest Later and as it dawns upon me..

Just another Sadhak seeking the almightly..

love you lord

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Starting the Journey

Chapter 6 : Bhagwad Gita

Lord Krishna says the real saint is the one who has renounced the desire for fruits of Karma and not the one who has renounced karma.

The Osho elaboration is that the old ritual of attaining sainthood and retreating to the jungles is not the real sainthood. He criticizes it strongly and puts emphasis on living in the world and renouncing the desire itself.

But as I understand; it is like this: The ancient practice of retreating to a jungle for attaining sainthood is a mere help. Since a sanyasi is away from worldly attractions; it will help him to stay focussed on his goal. Surely; he has no attained sainthood yet since he is still aiming for something; desiring something. But the environment of jungle is less likely to distract a novice who is on the path. But yes; it is only a mere help; a beginning. It is not a necessary condition and definitely not a sufficient one. The end outcome should be that the sanyasi should be able to come back to the world and still maintain his samadhi.

The path guided by the Osho is to start renouncing the desires in day-to-day life. There is a bliss of another kind which can not be explained by words. To taste it; he asks to conduct a small 24 hr experiment. Stop desiring for the outcome anything we do (just about anything) for one day. we do all the normal chores but consciously try to keep focusing our mind to not to desire something for this period. I tried it and succeeded for about 5 hrs and I am pleased to say I experienced bliss.

But I am still confused on how to further tread along this path. It is not without danger; the major one being: you keep on controlling the desires and live in a blissfull state - all very well. But once the mischievous mana (mind) attacks you unaware; all the desire will come rushing. By then, it might be too late to fulfill them. So you may fall into deep turmoil & repentence; beginning to think that you were mere lazy and wasted the precious months/years of life. You will see your friends & colleagues who will be achieving things which you used to desire; and still desire. I fear that you dont feel like a terrible failure at that point.

At the same time; renouncing the desire for our actions doesnt mean inaction. Osho points that it will naturally lead to shedding away of all that is evil in life. All the life energy will get devoted to positive things. Hence, it is possible that your destiny takes you to another level which you might not have reached if you were caught in the tangle of desire. But in such a living; you have surrendered yourself to the supreme power; you have surrendered your boat to the tides. The tides may take you to the places you used to desire or which people desire or they may not take you there. Both the possibilities are there. But what is certain is that; while you are in that state - while you are in the state of devotion to the tide; it will be bliss. It will keep you healthy - physically and mentally and happy.